Self-learning can begin either with a complete lack of understanding or with a step forward, but not the other way around.
And it is clear why this is so. In order not to be confused by discoveries, just because someone has made a step forward, it is necessary to take it all as “from the ship to the ball. Everyone is fooling around. But that’s how you can still fool around, and “encore”, and even “at intermission. But if you yourself can not go further, it is necessary to try necessarily. And it’s not that this “jettisoning of ballast” will make you feel better. This is not always the case.
“Smiling” can also be done after you’ve figured out how things work. “Smiling” can be transformed into “mask, smile, mask”-but only if that’s what you yourself look like. Then it’s not a “mask,” but a “grimace.” “shit, I’m late” – “well, it doesn’t matter, I’ll stand still, bye”.
In the same way, one refuses to do the “wrong” thing when one realizes how it worsens rather than improves the situation.
Self-disappointment can be transformed into a sense of rightness.
Even a false prophet can go wrong just by realizing how he is acting.
Or in a moment of disempowerment-if you understand how to stop it.
These moments are where the real magic lies.
Everything else is magic at the level of “smiles, smiles, masks” or “grimaces,” requiring no special skills or knowledge.
If there was “smile always, always, never” magic, it would be boring, everyone would know them well.
Smiling is more about knowing how to do what needs to be done, even if no one demands it.
The soul has its “karmas,” its reserve of resources, a kind of “leveling program.” It is not so easy – or even impossible – to change reality. Even the most primitive parts of psychic nature – our mind, memory, will – are interconnected and highly coherent.
Without self-consciousness, such unification would be impossible.
Self-consciousness is not the ability to experience how this or that part of the psyche feels, but, on the contrary, the ability to experience (measure itself) as this or that part of the psyche experiences itself.